YOU are the best.

Not me. 
You.

And you'll be my one and only....forever.

A Poet's Job.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YPz9lL0y8sE

+2 Dresses

So update: 

1) Elder Suh was the most awkward day of my life.
And I mean, everyone knew it. I didn't even have to blog about it for people to JUST know.
There were maybe a hand full of people that made it awkward. But because there were maybe 50+ people I knew there that I'm pretty close to...that balanced it out. 

2) Fish and CHIPS! MY GOODNESS. Thank you, Marvin. I have been craving that for MONTHS now! And it was so worth the bus ride and the cold weather :) 

3) I'm back into swimming!!! 

4) Finally called my driving instructor too! 

5) Seems like my life is falling together now...I've been going to Church on my own again and it feels amazing! The homily touched me today too. It was about the gospel which was the one about the paralyzed man who wanted to be healed by Jesus but there was such a large crowd that he had to be taken down through the roof. And Father was saying: "Think and reflect about what your disability is...what your obstacle is, like the crowd was to the man...and most of all...think about what you would do to GET to Jesus (like how the man went through the roof.)" And then I was thinking in my head, "What would I say to Jesus? Am I worthy of being healed? And do people even WANT to know life away from sin? Or would they rather sin?" Then I realized just how much I want to get out of this pool of darkness...I want to be able to see his face as clearly as I once did. So here I go...I'm going to sign up for an hour of adoration chapel a week. 

6) Yes, the title does mean I bought 2 more dresses. They were amazingly priced! So don't get upset. $10 for a baby doll Propaganda Dress and then $43 for a Vero Moda dark blue satin dress. Sigh...I called Marvin to tell him (woke him up actually) and his response was: Kay...good night. HAHA

Calling all JK's... I need yous in my life.

Today was D-Booomb. 
I laughed so hard...I had an asthma attack! HAHA...it died down a bit

but i was wheezing all night cuz of ali! AND i couldn't find my inhaler...haha oh well, it was worth it. 
You could read jache's blog for her version buuuut: 

After like...a really indecisive hour...we decided to watch a movie "He's just not that into you."
But for SOME WEIRD REASON...they're not showing anywhere that we'd like to watch it at...or (like in metro)  some of the show times didn't work for us. 

SO after deciding to get on the 99 B line...

With, yes, no idea where we were headed...

we discussed on the skytrain that we'd go to metro and grab some T&T and then go to Jache's and cook :) :) :) 

T'was fuuun. Went to jache's...took idk how many pics and ate and talked and laughed while eating and talking. HAHA 

Complained about students, talked about life...family...talked about what we're doing these next few days...just real chill. 

Highlights: 
-Nick harsh in love with jache's student
-Playing Dress Up
-Watching Family Channel
-Eating for no reason...not even hungry...
-PICS PICS PICS...legs, lips, and some CENSORED THINGS...HAHAHAHA...WEDGIES!

WASTED LIFE

Living is never a waste...
Life can NOT be wasted.

Recently there have been a vast majority of deaths...
shootings, suicides...and all of these are really uneccesary.

However, know that if you have been affected by these things
there are thousands of people praying for you.
The hand of God is upon you...

And I honestly felt it today when I read something a friend of mine wrote...
something he realized because of his cousin's suicide...
"May this be a lesson to keep those who are close to you closer and never underestimate the hard times a person may be going through. We all know how to cover up true emotion when things are really bottled up."

And it's true...don't laugh when someone is upset.
Don't rudely or harshly criticize people because they could be at their peak and could explode at any minute. 
People are unpredictable.
And keep your eyes open...
LOOK WITH YOUR SOUL...
FEEL WITH YOUR HEART...

is someone upset? is someone sad? mad? frustrated? stressed? ...Take the time to help them.

You might've made their day easier.
You might've de-stressed them.
You might've saved a life.

NO ROOM IN MY BED.

When night comes in...you're on your own.
I've made up my mind.

Because WHEN HARD WORK DON'T PAY OFF
AND I'M TIRED...


You'll be hearing: "No room in my bed, as far as I'm concerned."
So wipe that smile off.
We won't be making up.

Because I'm sorry about how it ended...
but I'm not sorry or ashamed that I tried.

Now I've had enough.
I can't shrug it....I can't deny it...

Just make believe that everything is how it seems.
See...when hard work don't pay off...and I'm tired...I move on.

It will never hurt as much as it did then
when we were both right and no one could be blamed...
but now I'm tired...
tired of this endless game.

So off I go...to get my well-deserved rest.
Off I go to recover from your done damage...
Good Night...sleep outside, maybe? :)

NEW NEWS, PEW PEW. (laser gun sound...haha)

1) I wanna play laser tag...in case you didn't know.
2) Guess who got their nerd-grillz off?! yeaaaah-yuh. Feels so slimy...like when I put that slug in my mouth! HAHAHAH! :) It's not as gross as it sounds.

haha! hmm what else is new? 

3)My retainers are clear?! surprise!!! i thought i was gonna get the pink ones. sigh! 
my parents spoooooil me hahaha! 

4)uhm...swimming again? possibly! for real though. 

5)i'm sore from working out. 

6)PaJo's is open now! So i'm gonna head on out there on saturday :) bask in the sun, listen to the sea-gulls, basically breathe salty air...and the bestest fish and chips in the wooooorld! AND...probably buy 2 for one ice cream with mon cheri. 

7) I HAVE TO STUDY FOR BIO! TEST TMR...or should I skip? It IS last block...hmmm...sigh. Then that would give me the weekend to study? I hate this. I'll probably end up sticking it out. I DO know the urinary system like no other...like actually. It's the respiratory system that i'm blonde about. I hate bio...
that's a lie. I love it. It's a one way relationship...like other things are. HAHA 

8) I'm tired. Not giving up. Just moving on! Because yeah...i have enough drive to do that now. 

9) BIO BIO BIO

10) No seriously...off I go now. 

ANOTHER dress?

Yeah, sorry. 

Couldn't really help myself...it made me so happy too :) 

I knew I shouldn't have tried it on.

The bond that can't be broken.

Some people create invincible, yet extremely significant, borders. 
These selective boundaries help us divide what is good, essentially, and what is bad. 

The side in which you plae yourself is what you consider "home" and it's whatever is in this home that keeps us together. It's in this specific and highly sensitive area that we keep the most dear and cherished people in our lives. 

For some it might be their husband, for others their friends, or their dog, maybe even their God-sent chemsitry teacher. The mentioned are only visitors, however, that come and go when it seems fitting. They're the sort of people that tell you that you can stay afloat by treading water. However, there is also a group of people that are necessary to help us swim. (Help us get us somewhere.)

They are a group that can't be abandoned or forgotten...

FAMILY                                                       
Whether you get along or don't see eye to eye is irrelevant. You can't run away from and then succeed, as a result, in forgetting them like you could a friend. No. 

And you can't divorce them like you could a husband. 
And you can't just stop talking to them for years and forget their face when you happened to bump into them on the street. You just can't. 

And as much as you may want to forget or run away...
it's JUST NOT HAPPENING. 

You can cry about it until you can't breathe,
You can waste yourself away on narcotics and alcohol, 
You can even try the dangerous and forget how to love, 

However, none of these things will solve the problem,
and, most certainly, none of these will help you in the long-run.

You might not trust them.
They might've hurt you. 

You might want to erase them from your mind, 
And you MIGHT EVEN SUCCEED, 

but you can't erase them from the ONE PLACE 
that matters most...
YOUR HEART. 

And you can't...because they're blood; they're what sustains the heart.
They're what keeps you above water. 
They're the bond that can't be broken.

"...AND SHE WILL LOVE." (The reason for my tattoo.)

'Though they kick, bruise, and sneer,
'Though they use and abandon, 
'Though they point, laugh, and jeer, 
'Though they keep on stabbing, 
'Though they charm and deceive, 
'Though they always turn away, 
'Though they only receive, 
'Though they're always short on pay---
                 

                    It's when the world puts up a fight, 
It's when the rain won't stop pouring, 
It's when it's too dark to see the light, 

"...she will love."

How strange the change...

...from major to minor 
every time we say goodbye. 
When you're near
there's such an air of spring about it.
I can hear a lark somewhere begin to sing about it.
There's no love song finer 
but how strange the change from 
major to minor....

every time we say goodbye. 

To attain wisdom...

...you have to learn to associate spirit and body as one. You must face, as if married, dreams and reality. You must have balance. 

"Together forever, pinky swear?" "I pinky swear."

One look in your gentle eyes-- let me know how I'll spend my life.
All my years in your gentle arms, all my days with your love so warm.
One sound of your precious voice-let me know that I had no choice
I know I'd be forever yours.
All of my life...
forever mine...
until the blue sky fades away.
All of my days...
no other way...
there are only three words I will say.
(I love you.)
I love you like the king you are, I love you like the sky loves stars, I love you like the grass loves green, I love you the way you love me. Never a day I thought I'd see the way true love can be.
I know I'll be forever yours.

Forever Mine-Chrisette Michelle

How do lovers work it out?

It must be more than just a tango.
More than just a one-two-three step.
More than the rhythm of T-A-N-G-O.
What happens when two can no longer breathe together?
When one is now so apparently two?

It scares me just a little.
To know that we weren't on the same page.
To know that we're not looking in the same direction.
It hurts to know our hearts beat different tunes.
It kills to know you were never looking at what I was.
...kills to know there was something else blind-sighting you this whole time.

Didn't you know I meant every word?
No...don't tell me you did.
Because, really, you didn't.
Was I a project this whole time? You weren't feeling...you weren't living...you were only testing the waters.
Only doing the dance...never feeling it.

We aren't just people.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mCfwNoap9KY

SO...what's new?

WELL, I bought another dress. (With Katrina and Jade in Aberdene...it's what we richmondites do.) I have to stop...I really do. I've bought so many dresses that I don't even have enough occasions to match with. But yes, I'll stop...I really will....watch me.

Sometimes I choose to not listen to myself. What can you do? (Haha, Danica!)

Annnd...as I have told Shannon and Marvin, I'm growing copper hair. How? I don't know. Before I discovered only 2....and now I have 5. It's weird....I hope it doesn't mean I'm getting less nutrients or something. Because that wouldn't be good.

Today, my mom wanted to watch a movie with me and my sister. (My aunt and her husband went to watch it...and phoned up my mom to tell her how good it was. Filipinos. *rolls eyes*)
But actually, it was an amazing movie! It's called Taken...and it really opened my eyes to how bad the world can be. Outside of this perfect bubble we live in...there are a thousand and more things that are dangerous to us and can just as easily pop our bubble. AND I think I'm starting to believe that my dad just might actually kill someone to get me back if I was kidnapped.

Check it out:
http://www.takenmovie.com/

Do YOU believe in love?

Yes, I believe in love.
Not only that...I believe in life.
I believe that wishes do come true.
Call me naive. Call me childish. Even call me brain-less.
But I know I'm not.
I know it's alright to have hope.
I know that by wishing on a star or by blowing dandelions, I'm NOT creating false hope.
I know that falling in love...and I MEAN REAL LOVE...is not actually falling.
Sure, you get that thrilling sensation in your stomach like that of falling...but I KNOW
that, in the end, I won't be left there soaking in the blood of my heart.
I believe in life. I believe that no one's life should be anything but happy.
I believe in those sunshiny days, I believe in laughter, and I believe that smiles are the best medicine.

I believe in trust.
I believe that I can hand him all of me. I believe that I can tell my friends what's been on my mind, what's made me laugh lately, and I believe I can come to them crying and they won't laugh at me or tell anyone. I know I have the best people in my life right now.

And most of all, I believe in family and God.
I believe that without these 2 things...I am nothing. I am no one.
I believe that I wouldn't be who I am today without them.

And THIS is where the 4 circles come in.
Jache and I discussed the tats we're going to get. And I decided to get 4 circles linked together
(2 on top and 2 on bottom) kind of like how the olympic circles are. And each would represent the 4 necessities in my life: God, Family, Friends, and Love. They'll be linked together because each one affects the other. And they're represented by circles because they're everlasting.
It'll probably either be on my ankle or behind my neck. (:

It's time for some reassurance.

I just have to tell myself over and over again,
"If it's worth having at all...it's worth W O R K I N G for and waiting for."
SERIOUSLY.

And I'll just listen to Count on Me-Lucy Shwartz to remember that I'm not alone in this. Thanks all. (: (: (:


Yesterday wasn't easy. Lift your head up. When the water is hard and you can't come dry because of the rain; trust me, you can carry it through till the end. Breaking FREE through this STORMY weather. Better days are drawing nearer and there's no way, no where, and no how anything can stop YOU now!

Remember: Right now you might have your: Feet planted in the soil. Eyes on the stars. Head in the clouds. And heart in your hand. But soon the stars will be in YOUR eyes, your toes snuggled in the grass, and your head in the heavens...and most importantly, your heart in the hands of another...with no fear WHATSOEVER.

Oh Chemistry how I despise you.

THIS WAS MY FACE WHEN I LOOKED AT MY CHEM MARK. Oh well, my exam bumped me up a letter grade! That's the only good part about it.

And bio...this will also probably be my face for bio 12 too...! SIGH. BIG SIGH x3.

Looks like the love bug has bitten me!

What's the feeling that I get every single time I look deep into your eyes?
What's the tingle that I feel at the touch of your hand up & down my spine?
What's so funny, is my belly tryna tell me something?
Feels like butterflies.
What's the feeling, what's the tingle, what's the tickle?
What's the world got for you and I?

And I swear it's real.
Yes, it is, can't nobody ever tell me otherwise.
And I swear I feel,
No I can't deny what I'm feeling inside.

Is this the way love feels?
Have I found it for real?
What will time reveal?
Is this the way love feels?

Everytime I hear your voice...well it seems I have no choice but to be amazed.
It's like music to my ears. How I really love to hear everything you say.
Does love really have a way of speaking in every unconventional way?
What's a voice, what's a touch, tell me is it really love, does it feel this way?
I always knew love would take hold of me soon but I never knew just how deep.
I never knew just how sweet this love would be. It looks like I have got my eye on something real.

So real, so real just between you and me.

Love always has flaws...but it's also always forever.

What's your definition of it?
How does it make you feel?
Tell me what is it you say that truly makes it real?

Kings and queens...philosophers have tried so hard to find it.

Love is kind when the world is cold.
Love stays strong when the fight gets old.
Love's a shoulder to lean on.
Love is you.

Love is like the water when the well runs dry.
Quench my thirst, keep me alive.
Just need one sip, baby.
Love is you.

Is it possible, there is a kiss that's so divine
Or am I just a fool, is it all in my mind?
Is there something chemical
A scientist might say
Well love must be a drug
To make me feel this way

Love's like a kiss when the sun goes down
Holds me tight when no one's around
Love's what I want to hold onto
Love is you

Love is kind, it makes me stronger
I don't have to look no longer
You're the one I cling to
Love is you
When the chips are down
Love will stick around
I'm so glad I found
Love is you

As much as I've tried to clarify
Love's quite simple, he's just my guy
Perfect definition...LOVE IS YOU.

This is what happens...when M and E get together.

So this Sunday....was Marvin and Ella will be losers together day.

1) We went to DIM SUM! YEAAAAH-YUH. It was so good :) Best ever = South Ocean Seafood on Garden City!

2) We were trying to get to Superstore and we had to cut through Lansdowne.
In Lansdowne, we cut through Future Shop. And before entering Future Shop there are those signs that say what's coming out soon and what the new releases are. Sooo Marvin and I were looking at them and he goes, "I wanted to watch Zack and Miri make a Pornie" HAHAHA. Oh gosh. I was laughing sooo loud!

3) Then we went on the 98 bus not realizing that Superstore was right there...we basically went all the way around because now the 98 goes to Garden City. So yeah. haha...oh well.

4) Went to Superstore! We bought Oreo's, face wash, razors, and get this... we bought MATCHING toothbrushes! Because we're cool like that...duh.

5) I saw Shenette Salgadoe! :)

6) Then we bussed it home and ate scones and drank hot chocolate. WHILST watching How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days...seriously...most hilarious movie ever! Then we ate Oreo's with milk. But these Oreo's were so weird! They kept breaking every time I twisted them! :( Made me so sad.

7) Then we watched ABDC and SYTYCD.

8) And he just left now!

That was quite fun. Pics will be up soon on facebook! HAHA.