Dear You #2

Dear ONE, 

You know what I LOVE about us?
I love how you let me rub your ear lobes.

I love how we know how many whoppers the other one wants...
when we're sitting in starbucks!
I love how you hold my stare.
I love how you seem to know.
And I love how I seem to know you know.
And we seem to know so much that we don't have to even TELL each other that we know.
We just know that we know. 

I love how you love me.
I love how it comes so naturally; how nothing EVER seems forced with you.
How things are how they're supposed to be. 
It's just like how the sky is supposed to be blue....there is no reason...
it just is. 
And we just are. 
And that's what I love about us. 
I love how you let me cook for you.
I love how you ACTUALLY think it's good.

I LOVE that you don't care that I eat like a guy. 
I love how you try to think like a girl and think about all the double meaning my conversation could include when REALLY I think more like a guy than a girl at any given time; straight to the point. I love how you still think I'm mad when I say "It's fine."
(I think that's so endearing!) 
And I love how I have to use the word endearing...because you don't like it when I say cute.
(And besides, I have to cut that habit.) 
I LOVE how you use litres and litres of ketchup...like I do.

(And tartar sauce!) 
I love the wacky presents we always get each other. From the Enchanted (movie) picture book, to the 14, 000 things to make you smile, to the (vintage-cover) P.S. I love you (btw, I love that you got it sent ALL the frickin way here just because they stopped manufacturing those covers because you knew that that was the cover I first read the book in when I was in grade seven and you also knew that I've been searching for that book everywhere with that exact cover...and what's more...I LOVE that you did that...while we were still friends),  the songs that you write/play for me, the countless dinners...
I LOVE how we go ALL THE WAY to the KEG just for some good steak. 
I love how...when you wake me up in the morning...you tend to stare and linger for a bit before actually kissing me awake. 
I love biking to Steveston and eating fish and chips at PaJo's. 
I love how you think that "you thought of that restaraunt last time."
When really....I know all the good places. (:  
And I love how you probably aren't admitting to it right now...
And I love how you're smiling as you're reading this.
And I love how you're probably shaking your head at the computer screen because you think this is turning into some wild game. 
Anyways...I love playing Truth or Dare...which just turns into Truth or Truth...and then Q for Q. 
I love late night phone calls.
I love how you hold my hand.
I love how you think I'm enough to keep you going for forever.
I love your number one wish out of the three genie wishes. 
Really...I love us.
But I love you more.
More than...
you know.

Dear You,

Let's think things through:
Let's think life 
and love 
and all the things in between
the dreams 
your wishes...
let's think about your warm kisses 
in the spring rain. 
Let's dream about how we'll sustain..
let's think about pointing and laughing
at everyone who pointed and laughed at us...
as if this wasn't...
as if it isn't....               LOVE. 
What would they know? 
They just laugh and point and point and laugh and laugh 
like a bunch of hyenas. 
Let's do what you and I do best.
I'll love you
if you'll love me
And I'll think about it forever.
I'll think about it from far away.
And I'll think about it sitting by your side.
I'll think about loving you 
every day

every second
every night. 
I'll dream about you even when I'm awake. 
And when I'm asleep.
I'll imagine your lips on my cheek...

even when you're at work tonight.
You know how strong I am...
how I seem to hold it all together no matter what I'm going through...
but with just one thought about you...
all of me seems to crumble. 
And there's no one I'd rather dream about

than you. 

So, you...my love, think about me tonight. 
And I'll think about you for ever and for always. 
For every night of my life. 

SIGH.

A L L   R E S P E C T  =  G O N E





Just for you. 

And your bullshit.

What's Free?

If we only get one life...
Then it's gone for good...

It seems you're the only one stopping you. 

So when you step to it; make sure it's true. 
And you're free to be free. 

Don't think about being less than yourself.
Begging people is never good for your health,
You don't have to kill no one or have to steal 
from no-one, in life,
aint nothin' to make a change or two.

This is a dog eat dog world 
but it belongs to the man,
but it's not without the love
of a woman's understanding
hurting ourselves for no reason that you have,
was already yours, anyway,
If you see somebody i want you to smile instead of frown,
just because they look angry 
don't mean they wanna beat you down,
and it, don't cost you nothing
but you pay for a gun,
kill our sisters and sons,
people we need to be.......

Free!

Said we're Free, to live and love again
to your mum or your sister, brother or friend,
this can be solved, just find it in your soul,
come get your Free, come get your Free-dom,
For all people!

ME.

I'm a cool low Jane 
With a skip on my feet 
I play tough as nails 
With my heart on my sleeve 
I'm nothing but a sandcastle 
Baby don't blow me away...

It's sooo warm...

...I can actually walk around my house with just spandex and a tank-top on...and STILL be sweating. I even have to stay downstairs because upstairs is wayyy too hot. Especially my room with the heated carpet and the really warm chandelier thing.

I should really be studying for religion...but I forgot my binder. SO i'll just study during late start.
I'll probably do french in a bit...although she won't collect it.
But there are too many things on my mind...
1) All of these poems are coming out of no where in my head. Just springing up like this out of no where sunshine. I mean...it WAS snowing a couple of like 3 weeks ago. 
2) I have our "Jai-Ho" version of a dance stuck in my head. 
3) So now my feet are moving. 
4) NOT ONLY THAT...but Chelsea got the Step-Clap thing stuck in my head...so after dancing the Jai Ho...I start dancing Step-Clap...
5) I just wrote in my agenda..that's probably as far into studying I'll get. 
6) I just keep telling myself that I have a long weekend to do all of this.
7) Play week is coming up...I want to sleep just thinking about it.

8)...I think I'll just go read. 

I SHOW WHAT I KNOW. YOU'RE MY KNOW-SHOW.

I show what I know
I'm the show know; hurt by the know-show 
"Should've known. Should've known."
I'm not history.
Don't even make history. 
Make the soon to be 
the meant to be.
Convince you and I into a We.

And I'll tell the kids our story. 

This is a show show and tell tell 
and I'll tell tell when you well well well'd me 
and told me to move on. 
I'm still here.
Still the now.
Still incredible.
How you're so unforgettable. 
How you jump into my life.
Catch me by surprise.
Always on schedule.
Always on time. 
And at the sound of your voice.
I knew I had no choice. 

The words, your song, 
The way you move, 
Make me wanna take you 
embrace you 
kisses-all-up-in-your-face you 
And taste you.

But you were my know-show. 
I waited so long for those words to flow
But I got up to your venue 
Waited for the I love you.
Then you hung the sign up on the door...
And it clearly read, "Closed. No SHOW." 

I want to be yours 
Until the sun fades 
Just say the words...
They're ours to say. 

Was it me? 
My love was always free. 
You don't have to have money. 
Just let it be.
Let faith be.
Let hope be.
Let love be.
Let US be. 

NO been 
NO was 
NO did 
Just be 
Because we 
Were meant to be. 

Don't want to be your past, 
Because I want us to last, 
I want to be your now your future 
Your forever and ever. 
And ever and ever I'll love you forever and ever. 

So please don't be my no-show. 
I want to show you that I know, 
I know we're a we and not a you
and not a me,  
We'll put on this show, 
Be on schedule 
Because "till death do us part" is our curtain call. 

It's simple&plain.

Wish I knew the way to your heart.
Wish I knew the words to start.
Cuz if you knew the truth; you'd think I was crazy. 
You'd think I was insane.
Cuz I love you...
simple and plain.

You say...
You say what you mean 
and mean what you say. 
These games you play...
got me confused...
am I being used?
am I getting played?
Do I go or stay?

But I love you anyway.

And I'll tell you the truth...
I'm grumpy in the morning; I prefer the night. 
But I will wake up smiling if you treat me right.
I'm stubborn as a mule and a pain in it too.
And sometimes...
sometimes I get in melancholy moods.
I may not be living the high life like some other girls.
They know my name.

But I love you...
simple and plain.

Cuz I love love love love you...simple and plain. 

How funny 
you dummy...
you don't see...
no one loves you more than me.

I see your reflection in the sky, 
Your eyes are wise,
I wanna drown you in my thighs 
and hear you scream my name...

Cuz I love you...simple and plain. 
Yes, I love love love you...simple and plain. 

Wish I knew the way to your heart...
Wish I knew the words to start...
Cuz if you knew the truth..you'd think I was crazy. 
You'd think I was insane. 
Cuz I love you...
simple and plain. 

Yay!

So, I'm finally doing all the things I love to do:

1) Being busy.

2)PLAY!!!
-SO EXCITED TO MOVE INTO NRT
-I promise you guys that the set is amazing.
-Memorized most of the script by now :) 
-Memorized all of the changes! :) :) :) 

3) Finally getting on top of things with school and studying.
-Math is finally where I want it. 
-Bio is getting there.
-Chem is finally happy-making to be in.
And all my other courses are just where I want them to be. 

4)Bought 5 new books!=reading reading reading all night.
-Finally bought a new Dear John (Lost my first copy with all my notes and folded over corners [tells me where my favorite quotes are]) 
-Bought Lessons of a Heartbreak...been meaning to read that for forever.
-And 3 other Nicholas Sparks books. (The Lucky One, The Choice, and Message in a Bottle.) 

5) and BECAUSE of these books...inspiration which means...WRITING! YAY! Peaches will have...maybe 4-6 new videos within a few weeks. (When Chelsea and I have time...it's been real busy with play and dance and school.) Look out for them! There'll be 2 surprises to watch out for :) 

What happened to my love?

It used to be about something. 
Now I'm just holding
onto this hope.
Now it's all about money
all about lying
all about you or me. 
Not you AND me. 
...How far am I willing to go...to hold on to this HOPE for love?