I've been looking up at 'em stars...

...in the sky. Just searching.

Last week I had everything down. I was so sure.

And I know that you can't ALWAYS be so sure. And that the average Canadian changes their career at least 5 times in a lifetime. But seriously... I was so sure yesterday and I'm so LOST today. How can that happen?

I fall asleep smiling and wake up confused.

What happened in my sleep?! I'd like to know. I blame the crap ass weather.

If I didn't open my window last night.

Then, I wouldn't have fallen asleep to the sound of thunder and rain.

I could've played "These are the days-Choclair" and I could've fallen asleep to that.

And maybe I would've woken up with warm sunshiny feelings.

And maybe I would've been just as sure today. And maybe it would've been more of a gradual transition into confusion; instead of such a steep decline from the clouds.

But that doesn't even matter does it? The "would've's" "could've's" and "did's" .... those don't even matter. It's the "should's" that matter now.

What should I do?

With all the madness in the world, I'm chillin and feelin' fine.

I'm buildin these instumentals, and kill them with brilliant rhymes.

It's hard to get ahead cuz we live in resiliant times:

where chill work is sellin knives, we got to be buildin minds

Oh, Ms. Serious, I guess I'll always feel inclined

Surround myself, only workin with the realist kind

I'm feelin great, this beat reminds me of a s u m m e r breeze

And I know my wrongs and the rights.

Do everything to get the best of this life.

And Imma take it one day at a time.

And keep striving always to survive.

Because the lessons that I learned at home

My momma told me, "Baby hold your own."

And I appreciate the love you gave because it taught me how to walk this way,

talk this way, never be afraid.

I am in ♥ with Canadian hip-hop!

I'm dancing up in the sunshiiiiine.