STABLE AND ABLE.

It's how I can walk on a tight-rope like walking on the side-walk. 

I'm stable and able. I've got soooo much to lose. And I guess that's the tight-rope part of it all; I've got everything I've ever wanted; ever needed... and they're SO precious to me that with one wrong move, my whole life could topple away. I've worked SO hard for this. And I can say that I've done it honestly and haven't kicked any asses along the way.How high up I am right now, freaks the HELL out of me. But because I've worked so hard... I've built up enough leg-muscle and this balancing art is already so easy-breezy. 

The scariest part is... when/if I fall... the unfamiliar concrete is gonna hurt like no other. 

The side-walk turns into the tight-rope. And I won't be walkin' stable and able. 

No.1: Just be.

Be who I am. 

Be all that I can be.

Be grateful.

Be understanding. 

Just let everything work through me, especially God. 

I just want to BE. 

I know there's no such thing as "living life" as a resolution, cuz life's started already. 

I've BEEN living. But there's a difference between BEING and LIVING. 

I want to BE. I want God to work through me. I need Him to. Especially with all the things I'm about to take on. I need God to be there for me. I need to start relying on Him. (And nothing else.) Living comes with it's own connotations. And I need life to be simpler than living. I can't be thinking about the future. I can't be thinking about the past. I need to be in the present. And everything else will follow. The past needs to be let go of. I can't keep bringing it into my future... because then it's just the same stuff over again; because then there will never be a NEW future. 

This year, I just want to  BE.

No.2: Pray

Pray for understanding. 

Simple in words. 

Complex in action.