I've been looking up at 'em stars...

...in the sky. Just searching.

Last week I had everything down. I was so sure.

And I know that you can't ALWAYS be so sure. And that the average Canadian changes their career at least 5 times in a lifetime. But seriously... I was so sure yesterday and I'm so LOST today. How can that happen?

I fall asleep smiling and wake up confused.

What happened in my sleep?! I'd like to know. I blame the crap ass weather.

If I didn't open my window last night.

Then, I wouldn't have fallen asleep to the sound of thunder and rain.

I could've played "These are the days-Choclair" and I could've fallen asleep to that.

And maybe I would've woken up with warm sunshiny feelings.

And maybe I would've been just as sure today. And maybe it would've been more of a gradual transition into confusion; instead of such a steep decline from the clouds.

But that doesn't even matter does it? The "would've's" "could've's" and "did's" .... those don't even matter. It's the "should's" that matter now.

What should I do?

With all the madness in the world, I'm chillin and feelin' fine.

I'm buildin these instumentals, and kill them with brilliant rhymes.

It's hard to get ahead cuz we live in resiliant times:

where chill work is sellin knives, we got to be buildin minds

Oh, Ms. Serious, I guess I'll always feel inclined

Surround myself, only workin with the realist kind

I'm feelin great, this beat reminds me of a s u m m e r breeze

And I know my wrongs and the rights.

Do everything to get the best of this life.

And Imma take it one day at a time.

And keep striving always to survive.

Because the lessons that I learned at home

My momma told me, "Baby hold your own."

And I appreciate the love you gave because it taught me how to walk this way,

talk this way, never be afraid.

I am in ♥ with Canadian hip-hop!

I'm dancing up in the sunshiiiiine.

enjoy ya' self

So when the beat drops we hop on the floor,

& when the beat stops we start bangin' the wall...

Moving on. Moving in.

Moooooving in!!! Set looks AMAZING!

Took the pic off of Belle's BB.

I'm in a completely indescribable place of bliss.

It might even be love.

Peep the fuze drinks and the chandelier haha

You're the one who they came to see.

♥

On & On

The man that knows something
Knows that he knows nothing at all
Does it seem colder in yo summer time
And hotter in yo fall
If we were made in His image
Then call us by our names
Most intellects do not Believe in God
But they fear us just the same.

Oh on & on... my 'cipher keeps movin' like a rollin' stone...

My red-skinned aster.

blooming constantly aspired to

winters that could

wan my red-mark'd stem

and i alone, endured the

howling death of friends

friends and lovers

who once were mine

and hushed fragile

tragically declined

to every weighty winter

with no hope of

a silken spring

and looked on me

as i softly sighed

a prayer to last me

through the desert season

till the months when

twilight consumes day

i touched their green

and hoped

where hearts did lusty dream

(i find)

of petals

petals

so sanctified

petals that will be mine

i looked to

the stalks

and dreamt of a death

where

strong blood melted

on porcelain skin

and i

instilled in mine life

with words that whistled,

words

beyond mankind.

beautiful imitations. worthy? idk.

Alexis Bledel as Rosie the Riveter.

Emma Roberts as Audrey Hepburn.

Hayden Panettiere as Amelia Earhart.

Camilla Belle as Mary Tyler Moore.

Paula Patton as Billie Holiday.

America Ferrera as Dolores Huerta.

Alicia Keys as Michelle Obama.

ribbon on the finger

want you in my world

last time i saw you boy

it was a warm and sunny day

all I know is i wanted you

i really hoped you looked my way

you smiled at me so long and sweeeeeet

i couldn't speak

you make me feel like a little bitty girl

what do you do to me?

LIFE ACCORDING TO ALICE IN WONDERLAND

Alice seriously hits the nail on the head when she says: "If I had a world of my own, everything would be nonsense. Nothing would be what it is, because everything would be what it isn't. And contrary wise, what is, it wouldn't be. And what it wouldn't be, it would. You see?"

Cuz that's how my life would've been before XXXI.

Take care of the sense, and the sounds will take care of themselves.

-The Duchess

CRUNCH TIME, BAAAAAAABY!!!

"So much to do. SO little time."

I've been hearing people saying this ALL day! Down the halls, in the chapel, on the bus... everywhere. And it's true for me too. This week is crunch time.

Report cards are around the corner. Gotta ace every test if I wanna keep my gpa at 4.0.

Play is around the corner. Gotta get the promo down. Gotta get the photo-shoot down.We gotta get every sfx down and gotta update the scripts so that the exact movement of every character is jotted down. Gotta memorize my schedules so that nothing gets messed up. It's time to keep time under the wing. But I'm not stressin'. I know I've got it down. I know we've got it down... the cast, the crew, the team. We've got this. He's got us.

Time to fly.

I'm not together yet.

John Mayer kinda wraps it up in his intro. I'm not together yet. But I'm getting there. Let's just say I'm thankful these next couple of weeks are coming up. I'm ready and all. And I just feel like it's taking SO long for me... and it HAS taken so long for me. And now I'm just waiting for all of this to be worth it. For all of the struggle to be worth it.

"This is a song about being fucked up but getting out of it, y'know? When you're a kid and you get a tennis ball to the nuts, it's one of the worst feelings in the world. But all men will tell you that there's no better feeling than when it stops hurting. "

Too many shadows in my room. Too many hours in this midnight. Too many corners in my mind. So much to do to set my heart right. Oh, it's taking so long. But I could be wrong. I could be ready. Oh, but if I take my heart's advice...I should assume it's still unsteady. I am in repair.

I am in repair. Stood on the corner for a while to wait for the wind to blow down on me

hoping it takes with it my old ways and bring some brand new luck upon me.

Oh, it's taking so long. But I could be wrong. I could be ready. But if I take my heart's advice, I should assume it's still unsteady. I am in repair.

And now I'm walking in the park and all of the birds, they dance below me. Maybe when things turn green again, it will be good to say you know me.

Oh, it's taking so long. But I could be ready. Oh, but if I take my heart's advice, I should assume it's still in ready. I'm in repair...I'm not together, but I'm getting there.