And I lost my head...

Are you out of my sleeve?
I'm hoping that this is a love you'll keep.
Then I think about all the drama...
and wish I could take it all back.
And THAT'S a FACT.

Yes, 2 sides to every story 
but what matters most in the end: my apologies to your heart, mad thinking time since we're apart, and this whole house burned down from just a spark desperately trying to fix what we started. 

But this isn't a game.
No words can be changed.
Situation is a shame because I lost my head. No matter what I was or am doing I'd be with you instead.
It's simple like elementary.
We are complimentary. 
Mentally, I was hoping that you'd come around eventually. 
Essentially, you mean the most to me.

You and me=perfect chemistry. But it got fcked up before it could really be fully evolved--resolved enough to give it time, step back, rewind- but things are just do different once you cross that line. And there are no rules to the game we play. 

Now everything is in disarray. 

"What did that mean?" 

"What did you say?"
Can't believe it's going down this way. Situations of us and there's no turning back. 

Time has no compassion and we're lacking respect. 

Couldn't see straight. Couldn't relate. 
Tried to concentrate but you had my mind on lock-down.
Pride on the ground. 
It's a learning experience
because MY LIFE IS EXPERIENCE-BASED.
Whether or not you're hearing this...
That's the way it is and that's the way I see growth.
Bottom line: I want the best for us both. 
 

PEACHES! (POETRY SLAM ACCOUNT!!!!)

We finally got some of them on youtube! 
Check it ooooout! 


http://www.youtube.com/user/pe4ch35

SB2009

LET'S HAVE FUN...
not care what people say

think

or do.
I just want to laugh
be myself

and soak up as much as sun as possible. (Let's hope it stops snowing!)

I mean...it IS spring break! :)

Passionate Hate-Dreams

I hate dreaming now 'cuz everytime I dream...
you happen.
And without any notice.
And without me having to have any prior thought of you.
And without any concern for how much I despise you.
How much I want kill you.
To poison you.
To drown you,
To do like those horror movies and slowly creep up on you and stab your eyes out with a spoon.

I AM A passionate person.
And I can passionatly say that I hate you with a passion like no other passion.
See---I'm passion-filled.

I want you to leave...[5 second pause]
Now would be good.

You say you can live without me..
but I can see
that you'd rather not.
Because you seem to be having too much fun making my life not so fun
with your 4 hour happy-making phone calls and then your not so happy-making 4 month disappearing acts.
Think you're so entertaining?
Think you're a magician?
Think you're some sort of fun act that can always make me laugh...
maybe...that last one.

But not in these passionate-hate dreams.
These dreams that I passionatly hate because you're always
so passionately in love with me
in these passionate-hate dreams...
but in reality
we're this passionate-hate team.
Because in hating you...you hate me.

HATES THIS

F*cking (Excuse the language.) STUFFED UP BECAUSE IT'S SPRING.
UGH.

that's all.

OUR one week before one month later VALENTINE'S DAY!

So Marvin and I celebrated Valentine's Day...on Saturday! Haha...
It was really sweet.

I made him dinner:
-Herb Roasted Lamb
-Greek Salad in Pita Bread
-Garlic Smashed Potatos 
-Spaghetti 

and then for dessert we had Chocolate Cheesecake and Strawberries dipped in a Chocolate Fondue :) 

While having dessert we watched Love in the Time of Cholera!! (Which I finished reading a few months ago.) He rented it from Blockbuster because it was a book that we were supposed to read together...but then he douched out and decided to just watch it. 
It was extremely awkward because (if you know the plot it isn't suprising) there was a lot of "love-making" and well...my parents were in the kitchen which is connected to the family room. 

Sooo yes, that was quite awk turt. 

And then he gave me cupido! :) :) :) That made my heart melt! It's a doll that I wanted last year when we were still friends...and he was going to buy it for me for Christmas but then they were sold out! So he couldn't get it. 

BUT THEN he ordered it online from Malaysia and got it shipped here! And now I have it sitting on my bed! However, not only did he get me the 12 inch plush...but he has the matching 3 inch keychain!!! And it's honestly the softest/cutest thing ever...and I sleep with it every night now!! :) And it's pretty big...so it serves as a pillow! 

And then after Love in the Time of Cholera we just talked and stuff...then he left :) 

Happy Valentine's Day, all! :) 

So I lied again...so what?

Haha...kay SO... guadala-JARA people want to come to our slam...

SOOO that means next next week we'll be performing. HAHA. 

Love ya guys :) 

Feedback.

SO FAR SO GOOD. 
Feedback (for Chels and I) has been amazing! :) :) :) 
I am tres tres tres excited. 
We're still gonna do the youtube vid on sunday 
annnd post it. and then compete next week! 
Everyone's invited! :) 
Cafe deux soleil! Commercial Dr. 


Deets later :) 

I was honestly touched that so many people are enjoying it so far...
Sara basically spazzed and Dre...love ya. 

That's all :)

POETRY SLAMS!

So ...we've got 3 memorized...
and i lied before.

One-Chelsea and I called "Screw up."
One-Chelsea (not named yet)
One-Moi (Fools.)


:) 

And we're still thinking about a stage name.
Any suggestions?

It's been forever...

since I've blogged.
But honestly...the sensation I get from pen on paper is so much more satisfying than finger to keys. Seriously. So, yes, in case you were wondering...I am writing (like) writing again! 

And not ONLY that...competing!
"In what?" you might ask...
Poetry slams. 
"With who?" you might ask...

Chelsea (not my sister). 

Well haven't yet...
prepping for it like crazy though!

3 poems down for sure! 

2-Chelsea and I
1-Solo

The 2 Chelsea and I are doing are: Screw Up (...must die) and It's Time. 
The One I'm doing is: It's a Different Game Now.

We're going to be posting some prac videos on youtube sooooooon! So you better watch out. haha